8.13.02 - 2:30 a.m.

i am a little drunk. surrounded by snakes played their last show tonight, simeltaneous to rocket!go!now's final show. both bands played six shows this summer and had a lot lot lot lot lot of fun. so much fun, and who even knew. then we went to kristen's house and chased the bat out of there with a tennis racket. it started out scary but then we realized how small and sad the poor little bat was. up against these big crazy people. it got out, but i understand. i miss you so much. i am such a fucking idiot sometimes. so hard to understand and so difficult. my discussions always end up wrong. i said and say forever a lot of wrong things. i made mistakes. i feel endless loss. people have been telling me i look too thin. there's something left but i don't know. i'm all alone.